Recovering from injuries never feels like training, even though it's sometimes the hardest training of all.. especially if you have to change your entire approach, to keep training.
We meet once a week with an SMR group, and will probably do more once the weather gets better, or we make our connection with the Rockville group.
The weapons training is nothing like my years of aikido or judo training, where my body was beaten to bits, and my mind sort of spun around a bit. Here, my body makes some very prescribed movements, and my brain is placed in hot oil to sizzle.
I am striving, to make my years of budo training inform and support, not confuse, this attempt at something resembling a mainstream koryu education.
I feel like a Hell's Angel in MBA school. The instructors tell me they are being very direct, and I find they are being very circular in their technique. Perspective..
Why am I doing it?
I am doing it because I am too broken, to do it the hard way, any more.
My sempai gives me the same old fucking tired line about women and upper body strength, and I just started laughing.. with tears around the edges.
We're about the same age, and he's a great guy.. his younger brother is a little taller and has done a lot of different martial arts, and I pointed to him:
"I used to pick guys like him up, and slam them into walls.. I could bench 130.. " that got my new friend's attention.
No, now I have to do it the smart way. The quiet way.
We aren't training at home, because Cg is figuring this way out for himself as well. He's got plenty of that, but I can't imagine what else he is dealing with, in there.
I just think, we should work on it together, more often.
We've both lost a lot.
It's no reason to give up.
Just because you have to try harder, is absolutely no reason to try less.
It's new for him.
It's the same old story, for me.